And I thought I was just psychic.....

Having an anxiety attacks gives you the feeling of knowing something wrong is going to happen, and usually something does. I guess believing and trusting that I knew something terrible was going to happen, something always did. But it was just an anxiety attack. Loser.

So today for dinner (and the rest of the month) I'm going to be living on nothing but liquids. Tomato soup here i come. YUCK. But you gotta do what you gotta do right? I need to lose soo much weight. I started my job at a daycare and working with children is a great workout. Pushing swings non-stop, running after children and constantly picking up little ones really burns those calories. And the best part is I dont even realize I'm buring them. But I need to start running. Even though I hate it, running is a great help to slim down hips and thighs and I really really need that. I downloaded tons and tons of "running" music hoping that would motivate me even more. Honestly, I do not want to lose weight in a healthy way. Probably because, its not going to give me the results I want. I want to be thin. Not healthy. Healthy is having a little meat on your bones and having a little somethin' somethin' on your butt. I want a lot of nothin' nothin. I mean, I'll always have hips, tits and ass, but going on crash diets and the look I want to achieve, I think, will look good on my frame..HAHA, I dont know what I'm talking about, BUT I'm trying to get down to 120. That's a good weight I think. And with the help of the Apidexin I orderd and the 500 cal. intake a day...I can get there in four months. Maybe quicker if I gather up the courage to order that HCG protocol shit. That stuff works! I already have Cylaris and it does work but it makes me feel very light-headed and just woozy. Sooooo, I think I might stay away from that for a while.

School starts tomorrow, 'll tell you how it goes....